you visit my blog all the times???
i got visit yours..
ya, i got gf le..
i know that hotel work is very tiring,
but must know to take care ownself...
long hour working back home early rest...
off day sleep late abit..
be confident...
if that work reelly tiring think of change others job..
maybe others hotel...
or others job,
not kitchen...
i think you already learn how to be strong le ba...
gambatek ok!!!
STRONG STRONG STRONG!!!
If i found another one,
I can treat her like i treat you ma?
I ask it to my self,
Cant ba!!
Don't know since when i have totally no more confident,
No more confident doing all the things,
No confident on work,
No confident to find another one,
I think i will be single very very long or maybe forever....
Can't decorate one cake connfident like last time le...
Don't know what can do now!!!
So suck..!!!
Today is our national day,
so clinic no open today,
today i should wash my wound le,
so mum buy medicine and help me wash at home,
cause it look easy when i wash at clinic.
My wound uncover le,
Smelly,
that i hate the most,
ask my mum pass me my phone and i take photo,
yuuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaakkkkk.....OMG
geli.
After that i open back my phone de photo and see,
all my handsome pic,
and compare with now,
OMG is really suck,
i become damm ugly.
All neighbours, friend, doctor and familly say that i am very lucky,
cause a big accident but i still alive,
even my car totally lose,
but for me actually think,
why don't just give me accident and i just pass away,
maybe i am abit selfish,
it will make people around me sad and suffer,
totally lose my confident on work and to myself.
Nevermind If GOD give me alive sure got reason,
I will be strong.
yesterday nite i cant sleep well...
10pm on bed...
but till 12am still cant get into sleep..
worried of my work...
cause mc very long...
then think of the first time go genting with your familly..
and i get sick le....fever...
then you taking care of me whole nite...
cause that nite i also cannot get into sleep..
that time you sleep beside me...
and i know i awake you alot of time in a nite...
now think back really very sweet...
thank for taking care of me that day...
now i am also sick le...if you can take care of me everyday how good leh...hehe..
sleep till mid nite..
my head sudenlly pain....
afterthat can get to sleep till morning...
now very tired...
you ask me y no mood?
how you know i no mood??
y i will no mood?
maybe is today wait your reply wait joh very long ba...
haha...
plan joh and think joh about 2 week de surprise finally done joh!!!
happy...
even....
i got my surprise too...hahaha
dunno should say is funny or sad or scare...
from last few day after something happen....
me become very less talk at my kitchen...
very less talk with her...she also very less talk with me...
but today i talk alot...but not with her...maybe because today feel very happy ba..
last few day be4 today me already go shopping to find present 4 you le....
walk le very long also dunno want buy what for you...
after that think of you hand like very empty and no see you wear watch be4...
and last time you keep talk people's watch to wear...
so plan to buy you a watch...
i go see le alot of place...
don have one i see is suitable de...
all is too expensive or cheaper de is too simple...
finally get to this shop and found this watch....
first time see it then feel it like very suit your white hand...
and the price is i still can affort it de...
i no buy it on the moment...
i continue go find others shopping mall...
but my cant find another more suitable le...
4 day be4 today i go back to the shop and buy it le...
but i forgot to ask them to help me adjust the size for your hand...
and i not very sure how big is your hand is...lol..
i just compare it with mine...i think it should be small me abit ba...
the next day i bring back the watch to the shop and ask them to adjust...
and after adjust i wear it and try...4 me is very tide le...then i think should be this size ba..haha
eventhough abit of '' fish '' that time..haha...cause i ask that person to adjust few times le...lol..
then aso buy present paper...back home make it to be present box...
finally reach today, whole day very excited even is not my birthday...lol..
but night my hotel got function..cannot back on time...so....
i can get to you on 12am...
i drive my car very fast....then i meet up with trafic jam...zzz...
so gan jiong that time...
then i use another way....but that way is need to pay toll want...
then i cut double and double line....
to another way that more fast to reach puchong...
when i cut till the road that time....
really SURPRISE me is...behind me is POLIS CAR...
direst open light and ask me to stop a side..
haiz...my heart say....and feel scare..
and i did something that break my own principle...
that i give the polis '' rasuah ''....
cause i don want kena saman for rm300..and let my parents know..wuwu...
but nevermind ....
lastly i still can pass you the cake and the present...
can see you smile happylly me also feel happy le....
even i work till not that happy...
but see your happy face...
it also make me feel happy....
you and you are team???
how come what i tell you will know?
alot of question mark come out from my brain....
but after all this i know the dicision i make is correct...
why you will think i don want buy you the ring..
i really got go see...
i really got go find...
try to find got butterfly de..
when i go see that time...my brain will think is it after i buy 4 you le you...
will more hurt you ma...
never mind la....
i already no power to explain...
even i explain you also wont believe ba...
sometime will open back the box and see the thing i give you be4 de...
i even tell my bro this and this when i buy to you de...
how i give you surprice...
thank you 2...
let me know you 2 more le....
Responsible
Everytime see your post at twitter....
I also feel sad....
I know i hurt you le....
But actually i not that happy as you think....
That day you call me and we chat le....
You keep on say me very happy mood....
Just i no tell you how suffer i am...
I feel very responsible that i hurt you le..
I make you no freinds....
No want you can shu ku even you sad....
And need to ack happy infront of all people....
Only infront of me you can be your own ba....
But i cant le...
And you know it....
Fall in Love???
Just in 1 month time i fall in love le....?
Fall in love with someone that i cannot love...
Because......
I give him scold le...
No friend do le....
Even i still want to be friend with him...
I know i am very bad....
But i cant control it de....
So sorry....
Just past few day...
From one friend she say....
'' maybe that is not love ''
'' you just use her ''
Me think le....
Is it.....
I not sure....
Just few day holiday...
I like forgot her le....
Is i give up le..???
Or all of this is fake....
I dunno....
Maybe after i see her then i will know the answer ba.....
Lonely
Now i should be happy happy in chinese new year mood ba....
But i cant feel it at all...
Feel so lonely...
At house eventhough with my family but they totally dunno what happen with me....
Cause i same as you, ack happy infront of all people...
Is it in this time i very easy to fall in love with people???
Chat le alot with some if my very close friend..
I have my problem...
I think they have them...
But i dunno what problem they have...
Work also feel lonely...
Really hope there have someone can teman me....
SMS with me....
Fb chat with me...
Twitter also can....
My phone already long time no receive sms by it own le..
Only i sms people they only reply.....
Haiz....
Already how long no watch movie le....
Last time every week watch one time....
Now really not use to it...
At nite tell le my bro i very lonely..
Maybe he tell to my mum le....
Today they suddenly want date whole familly for movie...
That really not a good feel for me...
So sad....
Hope all of this can pass very fast la.....And i can find my true love....
Very long time no write blog le....
Reason y last time i stop writting blog i also forgot le...
Just remember is because of one friend...
Suddenly will back to here is because i feel very lonely ba....
And also is because yesterday chat with one friend and she say i can write blog...
Write how i feel...
So i wont be so pressure...
Back to writing blog here should be no want will see it ba....
Should be no people notice it.....
this is the last blog i write here le.......
don know i still will continue write my blog at another site or not....
or using another account....
actualy this place is just for me to let my feeling out...
and hope some people can share it with me.....
but now i don want it le......
cause i dunno how to delete this account....
so...
now you all only can see this post only...
others i will delete it......
that all....good bye....although feel abit waste....
cause i already got feeling to this place......
but no choice......
bye...blog.....
tata............by lik jet.....
